Gone, Gone, Gone and…Back Again

I don’t think it would be fair to just start blogging again without ever addressing the fact that I quit.  First of all, for all of you who have been so kind to write to me to tell me that you appreciate my writing and even express your concern for me in my absence, I want to say, “thank you.”  I consider it an honor that you would not only take the time to read what I write, but that you would care enough to inquire about my welfare.

I have thought, and thought about how to express why I stopped blogging.  As with most things in life, it was no one thing that derailed my blog just when it was becoming what some people would deem “successful”.  The best way to describe what happened is that bit by bit, circumstance by circumstance, my life narrowed for a time to one thing:  just getting through the day… each and every day.

I was not depressed, just overworked (that part has not changed.  Can a woman have five kids and a career without being overworked?) 

Also, I went through a season of what is best described as “trials”.  You know, those storms in life that “try us” to see what we are made of.  It is my earnest hope that as the winds of life subside for a moment, that God has found me faithful through those trials.

Oh, I learned a lot – that is for sure.

I realized a little more deeply how much my husband and kids mean to me.  I saw a little more clearly that life is indeed short, and should be spent wisely.  I found that God is even more faithful than I ever could have dreamt.

And that He is able to keep me.

And that He loves me, loves me, loves me.

These, of course, are things I knew before.  I just know them more deeply now.

So, here I am.  I am back.  A lot of people who once read my blog have given up hope I would ever return and have gone away.  It has been so long since I checked my stats that honestly, I have no idea if anyone is still reading at all.

That makes me a little sad I guess, but I am very peaceful.

I know one thing for sure, I am not interested in blogging for the sake of numbers.  No, I think instead I will just do what I can to honor God with my life, including this blog.

For those of you who were so unbelievably generous to hang around, thank you so much.  You have been such a blessing and encouragement to me.  I hope I can in some small way return the favor.